Thursday, December 16, 2010

My heart is broken

It has eventually arrived. Deep down perhaps I knew this will be the outcome. But why did I hope and believe nevertheless?

My heart is broken.

I don't know how to mend it this time.

I have used all my energy to hold it all together for the past 12 months... to move on with my life. To live it like I want it to be. To believe things will turn out differently this time. But just as I thought the end is near, it all collapsed right before me. I couldn't muster any more to fix it this time.

My heart is broken.

In the end, a sincere heart is not enough. A contented love is not enough. A desire to start all over again... a willingness to start things right... is still not good enough.

I don't know how else to do this.

My heart is broken.