The Odd One (Out)

I can't describe nor put a finger to how I feel these days.

I feel bored. frustrated. restless. aimless. lost.

Maybe I just need a holiday.  Is that the solution? Or am beginning to feel trapped and losing sight of what I am doing?  I have seen this before.  It's just that the cycle is getting shorter.

I don't feel belonged.

And I don't know what else I should do.

Run Free - Not

It is natural to wish one can take flight... run from the troubles... leave the unpleasantness.

Uproot and leave.

Friends would say, they can't because they have commitments, children and so they choose to stay.

I don't have any of those reasons. Honestly, I can take flight but why am I not doing it?

I keep choosing to stay rooted to my place and let the disgruntlement grow, let my body take another blow at trying to absorb the stress and anger.

I have so little courage to do what my heart desire... to be bold in pursuing an alternative dream...

With the deadline Dec 2012 looming.. Will I eventually do what I seek to achieve?