Housekeeping

I decided to do some housekeeping today... deleted some of my old blogs away.... just felt that they are no longer relevant.... and I didn't want anyone to read them.... I guess at some parts of our lives, we want to stop and take stock of things around us... organise our thoughts... feelings... and rearrange our priorities.. The changes may be minimal.. but they help us to put stuff into perspective and in some ways to rest and move on.

I feel more at ease and peace with myself these days... I wonder if it is because I have finally made up my mind.. or I have managed to detach my feelings from my work... In some ways I feel the distance I am keeping and how little I need to struggle to leave work early these days. I just switched off my computer and go home... leaving the rest of the battle for the following day.

I do not know if it is good... but I don't really care... what I do know is that I get to enjoy some personal time alone.

Till Death do us part

Death was on my mind today.... not because someone I knew died... but it was the reminder that death is often so near to us. I heard about a boy I know, who is 14 years old, who battled with cancer last year. He won the battle last year but today, I heard that it was found that he has a tumour in his brain and he is in the intensive care....

Death is not only for people who are old... sometimes he comes with ample notice... sometimes he crepts to us and catches us unaware... If there is anything that we take for granted in life... I think that would have to be our youth... We assume we have all the time in the world.. we assume there will always be a tomorrow.. we can always catch that dream, catch up with a friend, our familiy tomorrow, on another day... but how often are we sure that there will be a tomorrow?

I pray that there will be strength for both the boy and his family in this difficult time.. he is so young, he should have all the time and youth ahead of him...

Tired

I feel so tired... the kind when you feel you just want to crawl into your shell and be left alone for a while... I don't want to see anyone... face anybody... just be alone and spend some time with myself ... To ponder, to sleep and feel the peace...