Nightmares

Some thoughts are still deeply embedded within.

So deeply etched in my mind that when I sleep, they still continue to haunt me, evoke the feelings of humiliation and pain.

I fear to allow myself to fully depend on anyone.

I fear to allow myself to believe every flattery whole heartedly.

I guess like most nightmares... the heart pounding moments will stop when one wakes up and sees reality as it is.